Yay I just officially got a job! ( After trying all summer!) Unfortunately, it's as a sales associate....Might be awkward for me but I guess we'll see....

I went to my sister's wedding in shorts & w/out any shoes. U may be wondering wth is up w/ me, but it was in Hawaii & on the beach I just got back to CA around 3 hours ago. The trip started on F

Hey everyone here is my goals for this year and the next two years to come. 1. I want to get in shape and start taking care of myself better. 2. I want to live life to the fullest,parties,family and f

Seroquel seems to be crapping out on me. Haven't been able to sleep much lately. Takes forever to fall asleep and then manage to wake up about 10 times a night. Well last night was even harder than

Why is it so freakin hard to be the person that you want to be? It seems like when I try to change anything about myself, I'm always way, way off... not even close to what I pictured in my head. I've

Its time for another one of my absurd and bizarre sounding blogs. Since the beginning of this tragedy I've always preferred the darkness as opposed to the daylight, i guess i feel sunlight is a gigan

Wow, here I am making my way through another year. The year is a bit over 1/2 way done. I have made a few friends through Yahoo Messenger but they don't really know what conditions that I suffer fro

One of those days where i just didn't want to pick my head up off the pillow. It's the kind of day where something in my brain chemistry is making it so that i can't force myself to be happy, which is

I had a breakdown last night, it wasn't so bad that I had to go to hospital but it was pretty bad. I woke up this morning, felt like I'd been hit by a train and didn't know what day it was. I didn't s

my first date when't wonderful we whent to the fireworks then after that we whent in the mall and bowled at the recreation center for a little while before the movie got started we had fun there also

I'm having one of those "why go to sleep nights". I don't really have anyting important to say, just want to say something to pass the time. There's something about typing, letting your fingers fly an

its 2 am now, and i can't sleep at all. been watching tv, switching between channels.got up to check email, and found an email from a person from my the old Star Wars group that i was with for a good

Hey everyone. I just figured out that this site lets you link to youtube vids and such, and spent the last few hours (yes, hours, I need a life. Hee) uploading links to some of the better vids I've

Well, I forgot about this place until I got an e-mail that said that I have a new comment. I still haven't called the mental health center. I "lost" the card with the number on it so that it wouldn't

Around 11:15pm, I noticed that my fluorescent light bulb n my room was flickering a lot. I looked at it and thought....maybe I need a new bulb. Nothing looked odd except the bulb. Well, I went down

Okay - I am livid. In a two-hour span at my beach, this is what I saw: A woman yelling at her two little girls about drying off. They turn and run to the sand, and she yells at them again! "Don't g

A theme that I keep seeing nowadays is that you CAN'T have your cake and eat it too. Bruce Wayne can't be Batman and lead a normal life as Rachel Dawes' husband. Barbara Streisand couldn't be a good m

NOTE: The following is an e-mail that I sent to the Associate Pastor of the church that I attend. I am sharing this with all of you because this was a very critical point in my life where my Social

i was looking for some anxiety support groups in my area and i actually found a therapist, she had her pic posted and looks young so i don't know if she would be good in treating SA, but i'm thinking

I don't know about writing in such a public blog. But everywhere else all my real life friends would end up reading it and such so I guess I'll write it here and hope it relieves some emotions.In a nu