Social Anxiety Blogs

So I have switched my meds as of three weeks ago. I was on Cilexa but it was not doing the trick. Once I got back to college, which was the scene of some of my worst anxiety moments, my anxiety started getting really bad. I would be at parties and start to have an attack and have to walk back to my room almost as soon as I got there. I absolutely hate that feeling. Also, my Grandma was getting progressively worse with her Pancreatic and Liver cancer. It was horrible literally seeing someone wither away before your eyes.

So I am at a real low point right now. My grandma is in the nursing home and has a fever and is in a lot of pain. It hurts so much to see her like that and so depressed about her life. She doesn't even look like the same person to me anymore. She is so frail and sad and I just can't believe this is how her life is now.

So a lot has happened over the last few days. My Grandma fell and broke her pelvis last Sunday. Today she is finally getting out of the hospital but I am scared to death. She is a very independent person and for her ability to walk to be gone is an awful thought. She is just so alone now in her nursing home where she is staying for recuperation and I am 2 hours away so it hard for me to go visit her.

So I have been writing in another blog but I have not had anyone write me and I just need people to talk to about SA and stuff. So I am going to post my old messages on here just to keep all my thoughts in one place and then use this as my blog.

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