Social Anxiety Blogs

Just a little while ago, I got upset about something my best friend said (he didn't mean for it to upset me... he was just joking around). At first, I didn't even realize that I was blowing what he said out of proportion. A little later, when I had time to think about it, I realized that I was making a mole hill into a mountain.

It's still amazing to me that I still do this, even though I'm fairly watchful about this type of thing. I know this is a symptom of GAD, as well as worrying 24/7 about most everything.

But there are times when I wonder if I'm really over reacting. I went from blowing everything and anything into something huge to under reacting (if there really is such a thing...). I forced myself to under react, forcing myself to remain calm when things were falling apart around me. Well, that didn't work too well as it more or less sent me into a nervous breakdown.

I honestly don't know how to react in healthy ways to ordinary things. I think mostly, I'm afraid of truly looking like a raving lunatic most of the time so I stifle my urges to get overly excited about anything, good or bad. Of course, on the inside, I'm a roiling mess of emotions just waiting to break through.

Blah... I can't win for losing on all this.