Social Anxiety Blogs

99% of the time, I try my best to see the side of the other person's argument. I'm usually pretty successful in seeing their side, which can be considered a good thing. But when is my turn??

I know that sounds horribly petty but so many times, I take other people's situations and emotional state of being in mind but there are times when I'm tired of putting my feelings and emotions on the back burner for other people. Today is one of those days.

I really try to keep my negative stuff under wraps, only letting it out here or when I'm talking to an eXtremely understanding friend. I realize that my emotions can and have triggered people in the past (negatively) so that's sort of why I do it and now, it's become such a habit that it's hard for me just to 'let go' and bitch openly about stuff.

Too, when someone's going on and on about their issues and I'm having a hard time with things myself, it's hard for me to just tell them that I can't deal with what they're putting on me at that moment and end the conversation. I usually just suck it up and try not to scream too loudly. Not the healthiest thing to do, yes, I know.

For me, it's hard to find the line where my issues and feelings are more important than the next person's. I was always taught that being a good friend meant giving your all for them and somewhere down the line, it comes back to you. Well, in a manner of speaking, it really does but at the same time, when I'm having a hard time and everyone else is too, where is the line drawn?

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In addition, I still feel like shit.... everything hurts, even my hands. This has to be the most vicious period I've had in a long time. I haven't even so much as picked up a needle in the last few days and I'm far behind on my Xmas stuff. And I'm colder than the North Pole too. I can't stay warm, even when I'm under 2 blankets.