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Gawd help me, it's just about here. Joe's coming up tomorrow, we're going to pack both vehicles as full as they'll go, I also have to close out my bank account before we leave too.

Right now, I'm scared... so anxious, wondering if I'm making a big mistake. But really, I have no other place to go except Becky and Brian's house.

Depression's been hitting me hard too. I was even thinking about ending it all instead of facing all this pain and change. Right now, I'm on the edge. I feel terrible that I'm leaving the house all messed up but if I stay longer, I won't have any money for anything, even basic things like food and gas for the car.

That, in and of itself is depressing. I'm going to be 45 next month and I'm resorting to living with my best friend and his family. In essence, they're taking me in like a stray cat.

I can't believe that my life has come down to this. I just want to have a major cry right now.

I'm debating on whether to stay up all night and pack or try to sleep some now and do the last minute things tomorrow morning. I don't know what time Joe's going to be here but I'll probably try to be up early so I can hit the bank first thing so that's out of the way.

I have to say that right now, I pretty much hate myself for the position that I find myself in and I'm truly embarrassed by it.

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