I'm kinda new here so...i hope this helps me relate to other people who have social anxiety/depression. I was diagonosed as depressed when i was 18 i would just feel sad every day and cry for no apperant reason i've been on cymbalta and now wellbutrin which i just started. My social anxiety makes my depression alot worse.....its terrible! Like for example the other day i went to the mall with my boyfriend to get a present for my mom because her birthday is coming up, while i was shopping... i started walking through the crowds to look at other stores, and i started feeling really anxious...i started looking at the people and i started to think that they were looking at me and thinking negative thoughts about me and judging me. My boyfriend says no one was looking at me and that it was all in my head but even though he said that i coudnt shake that feeling away.

I started feeling like i was ugly...i felt my palms sweating, heart beat faster, and i felt like i was going to have a panic attack. I just had to get out of there. It was even worse when i had to meet my boyfriends family a few months ago...his mom doesnt like me at all because.....well honestly i dont know why she just looks at me funny and doesnt like talking to me she tries to avoid any kind of interaction with me. I tried to initiate conversation with her one time and she just awnsered but didnt keep the conversation going. His family likes to pick on people jokingly but everytime they do it to me...i feel so irritated with my social anxiety that i just cant help taking it serious what they're saying...most of the time they joke around about weight...and that sux for me because that is my biggest issue, that is partly whats making me depressed and have social anxiety. I'm not fat but i'm not skinny...i'm alittle thick i guess...so when his family jokes about my weight.....i cant help but take it to heart..... :(

I'm taking meds for my depression but nothing for my social anxiety....i wish i didnt have this...its terrible...my boyfriend is really understanding towards it but sometimes he tells me to try to get passed it like if its so easy. I think he thinks that if i convince myself enough that it will stop. Believe me i've tried but i guess its not something that can be done in one day.....

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