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I know it's been a while since I wrote anything.... blog entry, PM, anything. I've more or less been hiding in my shell the last few weeks, riding the emotional roller coaster. Gotta love it... O_o

Life here in KY hasn't been terrible at all. Joe's family are total gems in every sense. His Mom is so much like my Mom in so many ways, it's scary. It's like she's my Mom with a Kentucky accent :b

The last few days have been rough, as pre/post period days usually are. I did better this time around, fighting the urge to hide in my room and sleep for a couple of days (more or less...). The times that I was in my room, I made myself keep the door open so that I wouldn't give the impression that I was shutting anyone out. The only times that I went down there was when I was deeply depressed and crying nonstop. I've made it a strong point not to be around anyone when I was feeling that strongly emotional, simply to spare them the pain of seeing me cry so pitifully.

As usual, Joe gave me as much space as I needed and once I was feeling more like myself, he was there for me, happy to spend time with me and do things with me. Yesterday, we went to Walmart together (first time I'd been out of the house in close to 2 weeks). Today, we took a walk down the rail road tracks to go down by the river. Since we had had heavy rain and snow that's more or less melted off now, the river was kind of high. That was kind of kewl to see (yeah, it doesn't take much to impress me...).

He seemed pleased that I actually wanted to get out of the house and do something. I'm planning on taking a walk every day that it's decent weather. Ideally, I'd like to do it every day but the weather isn't always that great. It's been raining a lot lately.

I actually feel better for getting out and moving my body. Maybe this is a trend....

Craft-wise, I've been all over the place. I finished a sock (yeah, finally). I started it's mate (yeah, again, finally). I'm not happy that the color pattern doesn't match it's mate though. the first one had nice stripe-type stuff going on... this one has blotches of color here and there, along with some stripe-type stuff going on. Not happy about that at all.

Since it's getting warmer out, I decided to drag out my precious 5 skeins of Cotton Ease and start a short sleeve sweater for summer wearing. I hope I have enough. Until I get a job, I'm doing some major stash busting. I'm fairly proud of myself that I haven't bought ***any*** yarn since I've been here. And I mean ***any***. I'm basing my sweater on a pattern from Knitty called Mesilla. It's a short sleeved, sort of scoop necked sweater, very basic. There's a lot of added stuff around the neckline that I don't like in the original pattern that I'm probably going to avoid. I'll probably just crochet around the neckline instead of adding all that.

Also, I started an afghan (knitted). But, in the course of making it, I changed my mind on how i want to do it so I'm going to rip it back and redo it. I was going to make it all in one piece but I realized how heavy it's going to be when it gets to be about halfway done so..... I'm either going to do squares (I already have one in squares started... I just have to find it O_o) or make panels. I like squares because they're portable, easy to do and it doesn't break my heart to put them all together.

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