Social Anxiety Blogs

The emotional roller coaster is leveling off. The last few days I've been eating clean (er) not as much junk food. I've been putting real food in my body, such as a hamburger (homemade) veggies (I did not go into cardiac arrest). It DOES make a major difference for me.

Why is it, when we get down, depressed, some of us head right for the junk, I mean a b-line, even when we're stuffing our faces, we know we would be better off if we were eating healthy, yet........

I've isolated myself so much.

I came out of my shell some what on Saturday, my daughters teacher had made an effort at friendship a while ago, I spurned it, not out of spite, more fear, I learned something about her, so i sent her an email, it was the beginning of a bond. The same time, it helps me to have human contact, even when I'm out, I still don't want to incorporate anyone in my life.

I placed a personal ad, I've had many responses, I start to answer, then it's like, blah.....No......I don't want to do the personal ad, I think that's what it is, been there, done that, puked;-) Thats JUST me.

A young man I used to work with, that left for Florida with this girl, is back, and now working with my Mom. I can't wait to talk too him, I Had no idea he was back, I mean, he just took off, didn't contact anyone. He was extremely dependable, very considerate, he wanted me to have Hannah on his BD, sorry, couldn't wait;-) close;-) the team that I worked with then was fantastic, the pay so sucked, but if I could do it again, with the same people (not being pregnant, too hard) I would. It just worked. I'm so anxious to see C, yet, he doesn't know about this weight gain, well, I could say i was still pregnant, but chances are, he wouldn't believe me;-) it's just embarrassing;-)
I remember C, Angie, Ken, G (she was a nut, OK, everyone but her, she used to follow people around.....) A couple others but they were part timers, so they're not really in my mind. "It was the best of times it was the worst of times" scenario;-)
In fact, with this job, it's where I learned the value of women and friendship!

My sister is with my Mom, I've had the morning to myself, I must say, It's been nice;-) didn't get anything done, but it's been nice;-)