I know life stories are boring...Currently I am waiting to be enrolled in summer school and I only need 2 more credits to graduate. I have already tried to be independent but my roommates let me down. I've been an "at home person" for about five months. I live off of social security at the moment because I have a really low white blood cell count. Most all my friend drink and smoke weed, I on the other hand can't really tolerate these things because I get bad reactions, If I drink I get a cold, and when I smoke I feel as if my anxiety will utterly land me in a heart attack and my ears ring. I don't know what to do, I feel like the worlds biggest square, I like to be around people but I have trouble socializing, what do I talk about? why does my body tense up and my speech become lazy? Basically I just play video games all day and draw. I have no life and hardly any direction. Over all I feel as if I've yet to find myself because I hardly am good at anything to the point that it defines me and I feel I'm lacking purpose. Religion is not for me, and neither is killing braincells just to kick it. How do I get rid of the awkwardness amongst my friends and begin to find myself?, if you actually read this your awesome and thanks for your time and any advice, Omar

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