Hello , everyone im fresh meat on here but i have a felling that i will fit in just fine.
I kinda dont know where to start i guess I have finally chosen to be honest aganist my fake ego and admit i am probley a nutty so this is just the genisis of my healing process.
As it seems i am the darkness in the light literally the guy who has the opposite effect of ..I dont know who would u consider a fairly luckstruck person K-Fed or maybe even a flavor flav in a matter of 2 weeks i loose my job, get food posining, total my car and damn near get liquor posining even though that much is due to the former problems.
Not withstanding at lease its spring time again which can do a lot for a persons sunny desposition considering I live in chicago a city that has winters that bring to mind the movie 30 days of night . Seeing how i am without vechicle i figured i would take advantage of the first really warm day of the year a have a walk to my favorite eurb spot but much to my surgrin (cant spell for ***** not gonna stop me from using cool words) everybody and they 3rd cousin was outside basking in the sunlight the giggling little kids the fuzzy lovestuck douchbags the hoods and hoochie mammas the god awful law enforcement all crowding the city sidewalks my anxiety must have just poped out my ***** and formed a forcefeild around me as i pass all the pretty people i couldnt cop and go quick enuff damn i think im wishing for winter back you see just like christmas and valentines day the warm months remind me of what a misreble and loney bum i am and that makes me sad .I guess you guys are my new confidaunts but it seems as if only two people post here its all good i am thankfull for that hope yall can help me in my time of need and i will do the same well i guess now that i am finally coming to tearms with my mental demons i might as well start fishing for meds ....goodtimes

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