Ever since I was first diagnosed with general anxiety and social phobia I have been to four seperate therapists. I suppose this is common;finding the therapist that does the best for your situation is important to getting the help you need. Sadly only one of the therapists has worked out well so far,and since his practice is a couple hours away from us he's far from local.
None of the locally based therapists I've dealt with seem to work out well. They all seem to be disorganized and actually cause more emotional turmoil for me then they prevent. Same can be said of the therapist I am seeing now. He only comes to the town I live in once a week (he usually operates in another area) and acts as if the commute and his lack of a receptionist here is putting him out. As a result he seems to have a get-em-in-get-em-out additude regarding the therapy.
Even more frusterating is the fact that my mother seems to feel it's HER duty for the therapist to be suitable to her,regardless of what I think of this man. After all because of my condition she does handle the scedualing issues. But the result is that the therapists generally have to pass muster with HER before it's determined weather they work for me. She would never stop me from going to any of them of course,but I feel as if my therapy is being manipulated.
Also as indicated in my previous blog it's hard to for me to be able to tell the truth in therapy. My father does not want to have any responsibility in how his personality has adversely affected me and my mother protects him. So often therapy sessions that do include my mother (my father very very rarely attends my therapy sessions) often end up in an argument with her over our relationship.
So you can see how important choosing the right kind of therapist is to me. Since I have spent a lifetime being "at fault" for everything that goes on in my life that isn't good I need to be able to be honest and straightforward with any therapist,without feeling like my very presense is just too much trouble for them.

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