Social Anxiety Blogs

My husband and I are completely opposite from eachother. I wish so much that I could be more like him. He's so outgoing and carefree at times. The type of person who always has a quick come back. In a way that makes us perfect for eachother. When I can't stand up for myself, he has no problem standing up for me. When I can't seem to push myself out into the world, he's there to give me the nudge I need. He has become my security blanket and I don't know what I would do without him. Although there are some times, because my husband is the way he is, he has no idea what I'm going through. It has caused some problems I guess. But what marriage doesn't have some problems here and there ...right? He doesn't understand why I can't just say what I'm thinking...or why I have to work myself up to make a phone call. He tries, but just cant understand. I'm so lonely because I don't have much for family and no friends. The few friends I did have I've managed to push away. I'm not sure if it's for fear of disappointing them or them disappointing me. Trusting people is so hard to do. Anyway...of course my husband has friends and naturally wants to get together with the guys. I try so hard to be understanding and supportive, but sometimes I get so mad at him for leaving me alone. Most of the time I can hold it in and not let it show, but lately its been screaming out of me like a mad women. I get so scared that he's going to give up on me. I know he loves me though. He must or why would he be with someone like me.

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