Social Anxiety Blogs

So, just more of my thoughts. I usually talk to myself in these blogs.

Everything is being turned into an objective, being compartmentalized and analyzed in order to create a perfect technique that will allow you to reach enlightenment.

But intuitively, you know that enlightenment can't be grasped, or you know that it already exists in you, but it is the persistent mind that is the problem, which always tries to create a new identity for itself, to claim enlightenment as a prize for itself. But it doesn't seem to understand that enlightenment is the end of compulsive thought, the end of all identifying and the accumulation of individual achievements that enhance it's self-esteem (I am better than everyone now because I have enlightenment! I can now add that to my strength (say), so that now I am an even better person than I was before. Now, I just have to augment my thoughts to enhance my mind to a perfect level. I need to be perfect to be happy. This is the recording, the script that is being repeated endlessly)..

So don't look for enlightenment. Rather, look at how you can stop the mind and maintain a conscious awareness of the world around you, and the environment within. You know you can't switch off your brain, so it really isn't you, it can't be controlled right now. It is more like an addiction - so you need to break the habit. Remember! You only need three things: Sincerity, single-mindedness, and courage, second being most important, because you can't accomplish anything if you can't maintain any long-term interest, if things jump around constantly then nothing is done.

As for the exercise, I know you've tried a bunch, maybe never stayed focused. But this is what you should try now - the anchoring method (focus on inner body, peripherally, at all times, to keep you anchored in the now). Eckhart Tolle should be the only resource you need; he seems to show the simplest path without weighing you down with countless, (pointless) points of knowledge. Yes, accumulation of knowledge really does seem worthless, I think its an addiction too. The only other thing is..I'm not sure that I can break identification with my mind. But I can stay present... perhaps it will be like a car, and I have only started accelerating

Anyways - that is it. Work on it! And maybe I'll come back here later if there are any difficulties.