Such a mixture of feelings. It's amazing to me all the the things I've been reflecting on this past week that SA has impacted throughout my life. I realize I actually got very good at avoidance without being aware of what I was doing. Avoiding any of those situations that would have caused me anxiety.
"Pathetic". That's what my husband called me yesterday, when I refused to put on a pair of shorts and swim in the river with my family. He also called me a "killjoy, rediculous", and some other hurtful things, while he's trying to force me to "lighten up". I'm very self concious of my body and even more so since I can't seem to lose the weight I gained when I was pregnant with my last son. He caused an embarrassing scene while I'm sitting in a lawn chair crying in front of his sister-in-law and her husband, and my children. I'm so mad at him and he just doesn't understand why.
So today I've discovered there's a name for what's been causing me so much distress for so many years...Social Anxiety. I knew I had some form of anxiety, but thought it was more situational, took meds for a while, then got myself off them thinking I didn't need them anymore, and that I just needed to get a grip on myself.
hello my name is alicia and iv been thinking i have some type of disorder but i am not quite sure what i have. i always have dreams about lossing someone i love mostly my sister recently.My father was treated for depression but im not quit sure if his whole family was treated or not. My friend said i might have anxiety disorder or depression.. i worry alot and always think negative. I just want to know what i have or am i being a hypocrondriac . Its hard for me to sleep cause my mind dont want to shut off cause i always think about stuff for the next day or things i didnt do.
Brian and I decided to open a new website, dealing with anxiety in all it's forms. Instead of honing in on one aspect of anxiety we thought we could reach and help more people by broading it to any and all anxiety.
We have profiles, friends lists, a fantastic forum, games, and a whole lot more. Come check us out at www.livinganxious.com

Hello, I am new...I suffer from SAD, GAD, PTSD and Depression. I'm 15 years old.
Anyway, I have been bullied badly at school. I have been at the school for 3 and bit years, and I've been bullied during each one. In my first year, they started small by just stupid name-calling and stuff, in second year, they would follow me home and make is sick rumors about me. In third year, they made up a song about me, get me beaten up and put in hospital and stuff...
And it is now the summer holidays and I have already been pranked called. All I'm worrying about is how bad fourth year will be ....
Good morning. This is my very first entry. It's Monday morning and I'm really not feeling the urge to work. I'm 32 and have suffered from varying degrees of shyness and social anxiety for as long as I can remember. I'm in a CBT group, and very committed to changing my life. However, it's a bit of a winding road. There are ups and downs to the recovery process. I think it will help me to share my experiences, good and bad, with other people. Also, hopefully I can help others in the process.
So there have been a couple changes in my life since my last entry. I had my first counseling session. I guess it went okay. They're going to put me on medication. I don't know what, because I can't get in to see the doctor untill september. I've gone 27 years without it, so I guess I can wait a little longer. I really hope with the counseling and the meds, there will be an improvement.
So we have been talking more and more about getting married and starting our life together. I was wondering how all of you who are married made it through probably a very highly stressful day. Right now, I am at the point of just going to the courthouse, because I want it to be a day that we are both enjoying, not just me living it up and him in complete panic. But in the back of my mind I do want at least a little wedding where my dad can walk me down the isle, etc. He seems to think that this is impossible.
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