Hi everyone, I just joined the site... so glad to have found resources for this disorder, although it is difficult for me to accept that what I may have is an actual 'disorder'-- that sounds so harsh. However, it is a relief to know that there are others out there experiencing the same things as me-- up to now, I didn't know what to make of my physical/mental symptoms, which consist of avoiding social situations often, feeling intense anxiety when talking to people and sometimes barely being able to carry on a conversation, being exhausted all the time from all the worrying...
Here's a little history: I have felt anxiety around others, in varying degrees, ever since I can remember. I'm trying to understand what triggers the problem, why it's worse at times than others. Lately it has been nearly unmanageable-- that's why I finally started looking for support. I checked out a book from the library after doing some online research, called "Living Fully with Shyness and Social Anxiety"-- if anyone has read it, please let me know because I would love to hear what you thought about it.
Anyway, I am actively trying to find support groups in my area (Honolulu), and am considering starting my own if I can't find one.
My goals are to be able to go out and meet/be with people on a regular basis, to lessen and hopefully overcome anxiety at work, and to start building more relationships. Dating in particular has been very difficult in the last three years or so, and I hope to eventually be able to date again without feeling overwhelming anxiety.
Here's to big change... I am ready!
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Wow
Hello Lotus,
Welcome!
I just noticed you signed up right after me.
All the things you are saying sound just like me. I'm tired of all the worrying my self and I'm tired of others thinking I'm weird, don't like people or just think I'm unkind, which none of that is actually truat all, I'm just mis-understood. The vibes I give off to people make them think I'm rude or don't like them, although I'm just so nervous because of my anxiety I give people a bad impression. It's not like people can see my brain and see something wrong. I can't help what I have just like a person with cancer or diabetes can;t help what they have. It's just our condition it not visible to people so they don;t understand why we can't be like everyone else. I know my thinking and my avoidance of people is irrational, but I can't help it and I need help. This condition is destroying my life, and it's making me lose so much from people I can have good friendships with. I can't even look people in the eye because I'm so uncomfortable and nervous, I can't concentrate on the conversion, I just keep thinking "I'm going to screw this up and this person is going to not like me too, they're going to think I'm weird because I can't look then in the eye, they're going to think I'm rude because I'm rushing my responses and don't make them feel comfortable." Do you have a problem feeling comfortable or worrying if people are feeling comfortable in your presence? I'm also looking for support and just someone to talk to in the Los Angeles area. I hope we can continue to chat. Good luck in Honolulu!
Take Care
can relate
I'm in the los angeles area and I know exactly what you're going through. The drain physically and mentally is overwhelming. Even though you know you're not weird or unpleasant to be around you can't help feeling that way. I fight feelings of anxiety every day. I have a good life but I guess I wish things could be easier. The intensity of anxiety goes in cycles for me but it never goes away. When it's bad, wow!
Keep fighting and realize people don't really see you in a negative light.