Social Anxiety Blogs

Just for those of you that happen onto this, my name is Annie, I've been a long time member of socialanxietysupport (SAS) but new to this particular site (well, this really hasn't been around all that long...).

Today was probably the best day that I've had in a long time. I actually got up in the am instead of sleeping all day and then staying up for a couple of days.

Life has been a roller coaster since I started into menopause. Wheeee.... mood shifts every few hours, feeling irritable and nasty for no reason... Now that I've started taking soy suppliments (Estroven), I see a HUGE difference in how I feel.

I can't say that it's done much for my anxiety but depression-wise, it's like night and day. I still get depressed but it's not like it was before... deep, dark, suicidal kind of depression... it's just not there anymore *bows to phyto-estrogen gods* I've also gone back to taking my other suppliments daily (multi for 45+ women, extra calcium[zinc and magnesium included with the calcium pills], fish oil, glucosamine chondroitin for joint health and a hair/nail vitamin to keep my hair on my head and not on the floor and extra B complex. As soon as I get to the store (possibly tomorrow), I'll be adding Ester C.

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Another kewl thing that's been going on is being reunited with an old friend that I've known over half my life. I had met her when I was living in Houston briefly with my brother and after I moved back to Cleveland, we kept in touch.

She and I connect in ways that I don't with most people. We are both sensitive people, anxious in general and tired of disappointment. She's talking about us rooming together (for a few years, we shared a house in New Mexico). To me, it sounds like a good idea as I seriously need a change of scenery. I'm tired of the life I have and need to do some major changes to make it bearable again.

The only thing that is stopping me from packing up yesterday is that she lives in Texas (Austin area) and she wants to stay in that general area as she has grandchildren nearby. There's really nothing local that's holding me here as far as people go but my best friend in the whole world lives 200 miles south of me (easy one day drive to see him or for him to see me...). If I move to Texas, I wouldn't be able to see him nearly as often as I can now. At this time, I can easily throw my suitcase and laptop in the car and drive there within 5 hours but if I move to Texas, it would be more than a few hours and just picking up to go there wouldn't be as easy an option.

Also, she's really not willing to move any further north or east. Oddly, I can understand this as I want to move to someplace that doesn't have frigid winters. I've lived in the frozen north most of my life and I'm tired of it and my body just can't take the cold weather anymore.

Quite a dillema. I don't quite know what to do. I'm torn because if I didn't have the chance to see my best friend every few months, I'd be very sad. At the same time, I need to make this change. I do like the south central area of Texas (unlike Houston, which has it's own weather and is unbearable in the summertime...) and the town that she's thinking about moving into has industry, is small enough to suit me but large enough to where it's not necessary to commute to find a decent store or job.

I don't know what to do.... *tugs on hair*