Social Anxiety Blogs

Hi! this is my first attempt at blogging...or even talking about the social anxieties I feel. Up until now I thought there was something wrong with me...like I was crazy or something! I felt out of place, "different" and even "damaged" but the truth was I just didn't understand what was happening within myself. It's taken some work...almost 2 years...and I've just started to see " the light". I've been anxious in social situations becuase I didn't know to cope with other peoples' behaviors let alone my own. I grew up in a dysfunctional home, but who hasn't? Every family has it "quirks" I know...I was and sexually abused until I was 16. My boundries were never respected & members in my family still, to this day, try & emotionally abuse me so yes the cards were stacked against me!! But that's not as important as right now... at the age of 33, I have the power to learn from my own self insights!! What a concept eh!? Up until 2 years ago... 31 years of age... I was still rebelling hahaha. Isn't that terrible!? I hadn't emotionally grown in over 15 years!!! People were walking all over me, manipulating and treating me like "garbage". The worst news is that...their behavior made ME feel like it was my fault!!! What a bunch of B.S.! I am worth being treated with love & respect!! So now...when I am in social situations I sit back and watch how other people behave first. I still feel anxiety & there are things that still trigger my anxiety...I overeat to calm my anxieties still but...this is why I'm here... and through self examination I am def. on the road to figuring out what's is going on inside ofme. So if you feel like the world is getting the best of you...and you feel like you are only surviving in this world and not living in it... hold on... take a breath & remember you & your feelings matter!!!!

ladi