Social Anxiety Blogs

I'm fourteen years old and I've been battling social anxiety for as long as I can rememeber. I was an ideal canidate in a lot of ways: only child, overprotective parents, teased constantly. I used to feel sick at the thought of going to school, constantly felt like I was being watched, apologized even if I'd done nothing wrong. The last time I went to the mall, I broke down in tears because I was so scared. I was a master at avoiding things but often faced my fears to volunteer somewhere. There are several other instances I can tell you but I don't have the time.

I've been going to cognitive behavioral therapy since the end of December. Lucky for me, it helps, and I'm no longer anxious constantly. Instead, it rears up at random points during the day and scares me. A lot of those feelings that the anxiety covered up are coming out now. I don't know how to act around people--when to laugh, when to frown, that sort of stuff--and I know I'm not the only one, something that's always been hard for me. I'm just now learning stuff about myself, stuff that most people have known for years. Those "About Me" things are evil and they always have been. I'm attempting to get rid of my trust issues but that's hard in itself.

That's all I can think of to say.

-Alwaysawriter