Social Anxiety Blogs

So a lot has happened over the last few days. My Grandma fell and broke her pelvis last Sunday. Today she is finally getting out of the hospital but I am scared to death. She is a very independent person and for her ability to walk to be gone is an awful thought. She is just so alone now in her nursing home where she is staying for recuperation and I am 2 hours away so it hard for me to go visit her.

During my freshmen year of college I had many friends and family die and it brought out some sever depression and anxiety. I am afraid that this situation is going to do the same. I am concious that this situation is not good for me so I am trying to keep myself in check but it is very hard to do. My mom is also aware of how I got last time so she is calling a lot trying to keep me calm. It is just so hard to see her in pain and lying in the hospital bed. Her spunk is gone and I can tell she is just so sad now that this happened to her. I have a tendency to try to take on other people's emotions to take some grief from them. I know it does not make sense but it is something that I have always done. I am just trying to distance myself from her feelings but still be there for her at the same time. It's a hard line to walk.