Okay, so I haven't been on here in a while, but during the time that I have been absent I have been getting better, slowly but not so slow really...now that I think about it. Anyways! I wanted to share what has been helping me for everyone who feels the same way and is struggling with anxiety, because I feel that..I should, why not right? we are here to help eachother, and I would love nothing more then to help others.
Okay so one day afterwork I drove a fellow employee to the clinic, because he was sick and did not wan to go alone. Well on the way dropping him off at home afterwards we started talking about God, ( I don't remember how we got on the topic) and what we believed in. He invited me in for lunch, and we started talking more, and then I started spillling to him about my social anxiety and how bad it was, and how I was getting it with just talking to him at that very moment. He continued telling me about how he used to be hard into drugs and did some other bad things, and had been put in jail twice.. and while he was in jail he started reading the bible and praying. After he got out, he kept strengthening his faith with God, and praying as much as possible. I can honestly say, that I wouldn't of had a clue that he was a pretty rebelious and drug abusing person before, because now he's so nice, caring and seems pretty respectable. Anyways, he started giving me helpful advice. I was very desperate and decided that I would pick up the bible and start reading it and praying.. I felt a lot of doubt at first, I was still feeling insicure and unsure, and worried it wasn't going to work for me..but I tried anyways, and I kept up with it.M my friend was very helpful, he kept giving me guidance, and encouraging words. One thing that really touched me was that he told me that he would pray for me.. it felt good to hear that and have someone care and pray for me. Well Two things that really helped me when it came to helping me not care about what other people thought; was telling myself that God is huge, right? well God created everyone and is judging all of us..so if someone is giving me judgmental eyes or says something offencive..They are pretty miniscule compared to God, their words really don't mean anything, because as they are trying to be negative towards me..God is judging them that very moment. What they say or think about me, really does not matter... Also to help me not hate people so much, because I hated people ALOT!! very bitter with everyone..well I know this seems kind of silly, and I still feel kind of silly saying it(because I did not believe in the devil)..but When someone says something hurtful, it is the devil speaking through them, it isn't them..theys till have feelings, and they are still a person too.. right? so you can easily discard what they say. I don't know, its just really helped me to think of these things. ALso, the big helper! When I prayed to God, I said Thank you god for the healing (or whatever it is you need), I thanked him as though I already had the healing... convincing my brain, and also strenghthening my confidence in the Lord... that has helped tremedously, because you are also enforcing positive thinking.. I feel so much improvement. A book that has really helped guid me, and is very relatable..is From Faith to Faith a daily guid to victory by Kenneth and Gloria Copeland. I highly reccomend anyone who is searching for help and guidance to pick up that book. it's great. I feel that my message isn't really doing it justice, but I thought I would put it out there, and if anyone wants to talk about it, or have questions or anything.. then feel free to respond. I hope no one thinks I'm trying to push religion or sell God to anyone or anything, because I never used to be a very holy or religious person... in fact, I was prob closest to the farthest thing from it. So with that said, it's pretty crazy for me to be posting this for everyone to read right now. I hope its helpful. Oh, and if you want me to pray for you, I will. Just ask.
PS: The more that I read the bible, and prayed, and talked about the Lord with my friend, and even with other people it started building my confidence. You may not think it would, but it really does give you this confidence, because you are putting your belief in something that you can't even see ( you can feel him though and there are little signs everywhere) and you are also trying to improve yourself, and you are learning. My friend told me that, once you put your confidence in the lord, you stop worrying so much (which you do. I have) You're trusting in him to take care of you. That doesn't mean you stop trying, because God helps those who helps themselves right? but just dedicating your time to praising, praying, reading the bible..etc.. works in your favor. Things will start falling into place, and you will be less stressed out.
here's a little praryer that I like;
God will take care of you
May your heart
find peace and comfort
in the knowledge
that you are never alone
God is your stronghold,
and with him as your guide
you need never be afraid
Cast all your cares on him..
and believe.
Linda E. Knight.
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just another note..
I just had to add one more thing.. now if you've read my other blogs, you know that I felt very alone in my struggle. Well people are going to come and go in my life, and people are always going to mess up and sin or hurt me..we're people, that's our nature.. we aren't perfect.. :| well, God is always there, God is consistant in my life, even when I do feel alone in the world, and I don't have a close best friend (which those are good to have) I have God, and he will always be there. That's a nice feeling, to know that he's always there, and he will never leave you. He wants better for you, and he wants to help you.
Keep in mind, this is all very crazy for me to be saying this to you right now, but I really want to help others, if this helped me, then I trust it can help you too. Anxiety is too horrible and draining to deal with alone.
God bless!
Amen
Olive Amen, You know, God never leaves us nor forsakes us. When times are tough, if we will turn to God instead of allowing ourselves to become overwhelmed, we will see that things will get easier. It's great to see that you have seen the Light, and are now reaching for the Lord each time you feel like the anxiety is getting to you. He is so faithful to those who love Him. Praying for you sis.
Take care and God Bless
thank you
Aw, thank you for the encouraging words, it is really nice to associate with other belivers.
God Bless you too!