Social Anxiety Blogs

So I have switched my meds as of three weeks ago. I was on Cilexa but it was not doing the trick. Once I got back to college, which was the scene of some of my worst anxiety moments, my anxiety started getting really bad. I would be at parties and start to have an attack and have to walk back to my room almost as soon as I got there. I absolutely hate that feeling. Also, my Grandma was getting progressively worse with her Pancreatic and Liver cancer. It was horrible literally seeing someone wither away before your eyes. I have always have a fear of death which comes from some events that happened in my past, so seeing Grandma was very, very hard.

So I went to my doctor and she changed me to Welbutrin and then she also have me Loraxopram to take "in case of emergency". I am going on my third week on these pills and they seem to be doing the trick. The only problem is that I have been sleeping a lot less lately. I am always up by 6 and it takes a lot of me to go back to sleep. Has anyone else had that problem? My anxiety is going down though so hopefully the rest of the side effects will go away with time.

My Grandma did pass away Wednesday, April 22nd, 2 hours before my 22nd birthday. It was the crappiest birthday ever. I was also asked to speak at my Grandma's memorial. It was difficult but, just as writing is therapeutic, so was talking. I cried and was emotional but it was needed.

So now I am back at college, in my last month till I graduate. I am in the midst of my thesis and research paper for another class. I am doing my internship and trying to keep in touch with family. I am also trying to look for a job which I kind of suck at. oh well.