Social Anxiety Blogs

So, here's a little bit about me. My mom passed away from Ovarian cancer when I was 20 years old, a year and a half ago. I just turned 22 in June. I was diagnosed with extreme Social Anxiety Disorder and clinical (suicidal) depression when I was 17.
My mom was diagnosed with Stage IV Ovarian cancer when I was 19. I was forced to grow out of my shell very quickly and grow up overnight. I had been a very shy girl with SAD living at home with my mom, who was my best friend.
My mom was diagnosed with Stage IV cancer at the beginning of October and on that Halloween, she collapsed on the stairs. I had to call 911. I moved everything out of our apartment by myself. I had to find a place to live fast, a job fast, and also take care of my mom. My mom was moved into a nursing home, since we only had an apartment and we didn't have any family who was willing to help.
During the span of a year and a half, I went back to finish my high school diploma (I had dropped out for a year because of SAD) via the running start program, so I was in college and high school at the same time. I worked three jobs while simultaneously in college, and also took care of my mom. So, I didn't have any time to dwell or be shy.
The housing situation was one of the hardest parts. I first lived with Christians who turned out to be very mean and fanatical (everyone who lived there said the same). I was almost in a homeless shelter once. However, on my way down, I met my best friend on the bus, and her family let me live with them for 6 months. Finally, I had to get my own apartment, which was ridiculously expensive (hence the 3 jobs) on a retail salary. What pains me is that I never got a chance to choose to leave home to go out on my own; I (and my mother) was forced out against my will.
Regrettably, my mom passed away during my final quarter in high school/ college. I stayed in school and got Bs (my lowest grades) for that quarter. My mom never got to see me walk, even though it was her dying wish that I graduate high school.
I did get a medal and a certificate awarded to "The Most Effort to Obtain a K-12 Education"
My mom did not have a will and had a ton of storage units, so it was a mess for me. I have had to deal with her death very much alone, since I am an only child, my father is not present, and I do not really have much of any supportive family members nearby. The fact that I have lost my mom so young has also been very hard.
I feel like I can't really connect with anyone my age, since so many people have parents to help them. This does not help with my SAD, since I try to avoid parties and young people because I do not identify with them anymore.
I need help with my SAD and I need some support.
Thanks and God Bless!
--Jewel :-)