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2 February 2010 - 10:57pm — kellymerlot

Ok I am new to this site. I have had some trouble excepting that I have an anxiety disorder. I know something is wrong. My doctor told me over a year ago that I hyperventilate and I am not aware of it but she could tell by the deep breaths I am always taking. Now it has gotten worse I think I suffer from depression and anxiety. The physical symptoms scare me the most the chest pains which I have ran to the ER on numerous occassions just to be told I was having a panic attack. Not to mention the pins and needles feeling the numbness in different parts of my body especially my face and head and my hands. I have trouble falling asleep and when I fall asleep I have troulbe staying asleep. I get shooting pains in the back of my head and on the sides of my temples. When I am in a full fledged panic I have to use the bathroom its like my stomach is nervous or something. I am extremely exhuasted all of the time. My legs ache and are weak. The chest pains scare me the most but I am too ashamed to keep going to the ER with the same problem. I am having trouble just getting out of the house everyday I would prefer to stay in bed. I can't get myself to do the things that are important. I am so uninterested in things now. I still love attending church but that does not even feel the same. I need help I need to get my life back I feel like I am losing control. I worry all the time that I have some type of physical illness that is going to kill me at any minute. I can't live like this anymore I have to seek professional help. Thanks for listening.

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30 March 2010 - 7:42pm — JAG1983

I went through a similar experience.

I completely understand your fears, what started my panic attacks off was that I nearly choked on a crusty bread bun. I became light headed as if I was in a dream, as if I wasn't really there, my arms went all fuzzy and numb my throat felt like it was tight, I thought there was something physically wrong with my wind pipe. My parents phoned an ambulance and when I realized it was just a panic attack, I felt really stiupid. But for months I couldn't eat anything without feeling like I was choking, I got pains in my chest, I thought I was having a heart attack, there was one night where I thought I couldn't breath properly, I thought I was going to die. I thought I had throat cancer, I thought my throat was collapsing inwards. I eventually saw a psychiatrist, which helped I was also at the time diagnosed with clinical depression. I then saw a Psychotherapist which I still am, I have overcome the panic attacks but every so often the feeling that I'm choking creaps in to my mind, but I have to try and convince myself its just all in the mind. Mental health professionals have helped me and they will help you!