Social Anxiety Blogs

So i'm also brand new to this site. After spending yet another friday night alone in my room crying I thought maybe it would be best to do SOMETHING that might help. I'm guessing almost everyone here feels the way I do, cuz it feels like I'm completely wasting my youth. Like I'm going to look back on what SHOULD be the best years of my life but are far from it. I'm only 19, and I've been struggling with what I now know is SAD since I was 12. Throughout junior high I was extremely quiet, had bad skin, and blushed in almost any social situation. Then in high school, the sweating started, and that was probably the worst part. Not only did I have to be a very quiet, awkward girl, I also had to get up every morning and decide what I could wear so that my sweat stains would not be apparent. I still battle with this today, but what bothers me the most is that I have no friends. I had friends throughout junior high and high school, not a lot, but enough to make me feel more secure. However, as soon as high school ended those friendships completely ended. I cant ever seem to connect with people, most importantly girls. I feel a thousand times more confident around guys but I freeze up and get really awkward around other girls. I really would like a best friend, or even a few close friends, but I'm so far from either of those I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm tired of sitting around at home, or just going to school and focusing on homework. The only person who really asks me to hang out is my boyfriend, and I'm tired of being his loser girlfriend with no friends, except his. I'm also worried that SAD is going to prevent me from taking what I want to in university because as my class sizes get smaller, I will have to start doing solo presentations, which I wont be able to do... which will probably prevent me from passing. I also worry about my future job, and not being able to wear the required clothes, call the required people, or do the required presentations. Anyone going through the same kind of situation have any advice on any of this?