Social Anxiety Blogs

Hello everyone.
I'm a 24 year old Male.

I'm going to be 25 this year. Something tells me its too late to do anything about it... can anyone confirm this? I think it all started when I was 13 going into secondry school.
I live in the UK. I am a abit afraid to ask my doctor about Social Anxiety Disorder. But is that the only place I can get help?

Just to confirm that I have this problem:

I never dare go to a social event let alone dating or even making an attempt to talk to a girl. I avoid the social event. I get asked to go out with the people I work with for birthdays/christmas. Everytime I refused (and they know it) They dont ask anymore.

i do feel other people are judging me all the time negatively. especially the opposite sex.
I have only two friends.
I have a problem shopping for clothes.
eating in public.
sometimes I have problem speaking to strangers
definately a problem in meeting new people
I think I do blush sometimes but especially if its the girl I really like

i think I have suffered from this condition for too long to be able to get help and get cured. I realise I cant even have a conversation with someone. I find there is nothing to talk about. I dont think any social skills even exist within me. Sometimes I go some where like in the background and watch other people, or my friends as they speak to their friends or whoever they are speaking to, and wonder how fasinating it is to have a conversation with someone. "How do they do it?!!" For me......even if I was held at gunpoint I would not be able to start a conversation.

I did used to think about commiting suicide for quite a while. But then I thought there is something physically wrong with me like I have brain damage or my brain did not develop into a proper brain like everyone elses. And because my appearance is far too ugly for anyone to look at or associate with.

So now.....here I am 25 years old not a life in sight. All I do is work and go home. Work and go home. work and ......(you get the picture)