Social Anxiety Blogs

You may have seen this on my profile on a UK based site. But I want to post it here for the world to see.

6/sep/2007
well kind of goodnews today. I manage to approach a very attractive girl from work today and asked her name. I told her "you are beautiful" in polish language (because she is polska). "thats not much an achievement" You might think, well for me it was.

monday 10/sep/2007

today is a special day. Its my birthday. I somehow managed to have the courage to ask out the very attractive Polska girl. I somehow managed to gain the confidence at the weekend and at the same time learn a sentence in Polska to say to her to day. The sentence was "I very like because you are so very very beautiful..." After saying this to her I asked her out in english "would you be interested in going out with me on a date to the cinema to watch a movie? just you and me?"

she said no and something about a boyfriend.

I am saddened that she didnt say yes because I really liked her alot. I never felt like this about a girl. I mean I've fancied a girl before many times, but this was different. Yeah I had feelings of social anxiety over the weekend, but I felt I had to do something about the way I felt about her. I didnt care about the feelings of social anxiety. I just had to go and do this! I felt I could not neglect my feelings on how I felt about this girl any longer , I felt I could not take it anymore if I continue to do nothing about my feelings. I fear that i would go insane. I had to go and do this!

Its very strange how I have over come the feelings of social anxiety, all in a space of a weekend it just rapidly went away. To be rejected by this beautiful Polska girl that I liked so much on my birthday. yet the best gift she had given me was my confidence back...I will be eternally grateful of her.