Social Anxiety Blogs

I come on to the message boards and usually respond to other peoples writing. Sometimes I will see a topic that really relates to me. Is this a place to make connections on here, because if it is, it ain't working for me. Yeah, I do takes things personally, and I remember when I first came to this site and responded to a topic, and I got ripped by 2 people FOR STATING MY OPINION. Of course, I got pissed off, and fired back at them. What they said was hurtful and unnecessary. I don't read stuff that people say to me anymore because it seems like no matter what I do, just like in life, I can't win. Damned if I do, and damned if I don't. Thats been the story of my fucking life. I just don't understand people. I wonder if anyone on here feels like that they are making connections. I remember the first time that I had a computer and I had AOL. I thought it was cool to be able to go into chat rooms and talk to people. After awhile, I felt it was a complete waste of time. It always seemed like I would come into the room, say something, and one person would say ugly things. I respond by getting pissed, then the whole room jumps my ass. So, fuck AOL. Thats been a few years ago. It just hurts when you can't get anywhere in the world because I am always fearful of being rejected by others. My life has definitely been dealt a shitty hand. Life is such FUCKING BULLSHIT!