Social Anxiety Blogs

My goal this week was to attend all my classes. So far so good, although I still have the rest of today and tomorrow. I feel so drained though - every night I fall asleep faster and sleep for longer periods of time before waking up. I'm not sure if this is a side effect or just exhaustion sometimes. It's nice, but sleeping was never a huge issue for me. I sleep fine for the msot part, I just don't get /enough/ of it.

I was having some major doubts this morning regarding my "goal". my mom couldn't drive me to school this morning and no one was here to make sure I went to class so I started having thoughts of skipping. Well, I didn't. And as it turns out, the only thing I really expect to bother me much today is my majorly dry mouth. I have hyperhidrosis (excessive sweating) and take meds for this too. They work, to an extent. And with bad side effects. Let me just say this: Trying to lose weight? Take some glycopyrrolate! (didn't mean for that to rhyme but hey, guess it would make a good TV jingle lol). Seriously, you'll be eating less in no time. My throat and mouth are so dry right now that I can't eat my eggos. I put lots of butter and syrup on my pancake but it's not helping. Now it just tastes soggy =(. A lot of the time to eat meals when my pills are first kicking in, I have to take a gulp of water with every bite so i can swallow it. But even still it's better than sweating my ass off. Physically I don't look like someone who would have these problems, and it bothers me.
My hands are so dry they're a bit wrinkly (just the palms) like old women hands. The dry mouth makes it hard to talk, raise my already quiet voice, and it sometimes cracks or sounds slurred. huge contributor to my SA.

I got my camera yesterday. I'm happy about that :) even though I figured it'd make me happier lol. High expectations? I've been wantign one for awhile and my dad pointed out a nice one on sale in the flyer. My mom surprised me after school yesterday by picking it up for me (I paid for it though). Wow, sometimes I forget how lucky I am. My family really does care about me. Not that I thought they didn't, it's just rare that they go out of their way for my needs.