I finally know what I have and it's social anxiety. I didn't used to have it though. When I was little I was always outgoing and popular. I wasn't afraid to get up and be silly in front of people. I didn't worry about entering a crowded room. In fact, I was delighted to be the center of attention. Then something changed. I was in the 3rd grade and my parents had just divorced, it was a bad too. It was also when I had my first experience with bullies.
I'm 17 years old, and this isn't where I want to be. I can't remember a time in my life where I was comfortable talking to the people around me. I managed to make one good friend but I always feel like I'm stupid or uninteresting or the most boring person ever when we're hanging out together. I'm not really weird or look weird or anything, I think I look pretty normal, I just never speak. I have no friends in a school that I've been at for over a year now.
I am 25yr old stay at home mom only because I have been too afraid to find a job or even to think about getting one makes me cry. We usually dont have enough money to pay the bills because of me. After I had my baby I started working as a receptionist at a hair salon and litterly went crazy from it. Everyone hated me, no one liked me, I always messed up. I got into a bad habbit of litterly beating myself up. banging my head into walls, pulling my hair. I guess it takes my focus off my anxiety and onto physical pain.
so i talk to people and do a good job at it.. as long as its prepared and i know these individuals wont judge me.. i feel lots of negative vibes from my roommate.. i feel she's constantly watching me.. funny thing is that she also has social anxeity, but she avoids situations and pushes them on.. for example whenever we go out to eat.. i have to tell the waitress wat we want to order...she wont do it.. if i mess up..she'll laugh.. its horrendous. why are people so judgemental of other's performance, when they passing a similar route as them.
I am new to this website...Can anyone help me navigate through tis SA BLOG. Looking to talk with others.
Thanks, Openminded
I've always wanted to talk to others who are having the same issues as myself. I have been socially anxious as far back as I can remember(grade school). At that time I was labeled as being "shy". I found out in my mid-teens that I had social anxiety. I am a functioning SA person, but some of the thoughts that race through my head as I attend functions and participate in things, drains me emotionally and physically. I used to be worse with the worrying about whatever it was that I had to do or attend, not as much anymore because I just tell myself it's not that big a deal.
Has anyone heard anything about Lifespan Integration? I started seeing a therapist who is using this form of therapy with me. Apparently the results can be profound, and I'm hopeful it will help me with my SI. I had a very unusual first session with him this week and I'm curious to find out where it all leads. If you've had any experience with LI, either directly or indirectly, I'd love to hear from you. Are the results as good as he tells me they are?
I've been taking inventory of my life, in all aspects. I decided, no one in my income level needs Gucci bags. In order to get to where I want to be, I have to accept where I am, Gucci no longer warrents my lifestyle.
I listed one Coach bag, two Vintage Gucci's on e-Bay. The woman that bought the coach purse extremely nice, the woman that bought the larger bag, wonderful.
Something tells me, the woman that bought the clutch is going to be a pain in the ass.
I give as much information as I can. I have answered more questions that I care to remember.
Such a mixture of feelings. It's amazing to me all the the things I've been reflecting on this past week that SA has impacted throughout my life. I realize I actually got very good at avoidance without being aware of what I was doing. Avoiding any of those situations that would have caused me anxiety.
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